The noise in my head nearly destroyed me
WOMAN'S OWN|January 27, 2020
For Liz Wilde, a shocking accident was the first in a series of traumatic events
LIZ WILDE
The noise in my head nearly destroyed me

Although I have always been a naturally optimistic person, one evening two years ago I found myself saying to my partner in a calm, matter-of-fact voice, ‘If nothing has changed in six months, I’m going to have to kill myself.’ I was referring to the tinnitus sound in my ears – an internal wind tunnel that constantly blew through my head.

The Ear, Nose and Throat consultant had blamed stress and said the noise would lessen if I stopped listening for it.

Unfortunately, my brain had become so alert to even the most innocuous threat, I could have heard a pin dropin the next room. Something fundamental had changed in my personality. I have worked as a life coach for almost 20 years, helping clients navigate through difficult times. My profession is to problem-solve. I had always prided myself on being able to rebound from life’s challenges, but the previous four months had drained my resources dry.

Where it began

It all started when I was searching for a light switch at night in an unfamiliar rental house. I lost my bearings and tumbled down 18 steep stairs, shattering my left elbow on impact. While I was having elbow-replacement surgery, my 87-yearold father also had a fall and was taken to hospital. I was discharged a week later,​ only to discover the true extent of my injuries once my morphine bubble burst. Every muscle in my body ached, and I counted the hours before I could take my next assortment of painkillers. My father was still in hospital with complications. Three weeks later, I received a phone call telling me to come immediately. They were turning off his life support. The last time I saw my father alive is lost to me in a blur of tramadol and tears.

هذه القصة مأخوذة من طبعة January 27, 2020 من WOMAN'S OWN.

ابدأ النسخة التجريبية المجانية من Magzter GOLD لمدة 7 أيام للوصول إلى آلاف القصص المتميزة المنسقة وأكثر من 9,000 مجلة وصحيفة.

هذه القصة مأخوذة من طبعة January 27, 2020 من WOMAN'S OWN.

ابدأ النسخة التجريبية المجانية من Magzter GOLD لمدة 7 أيام للوصول إلى آلاف القصص المتميزة المنسقة وأكثر من 9,000 مجلة وصحيفة.