butterflies free me

Anxious about the future, I asked God to bless my path

- JODI RALSTON

‘‘Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit quietly, may alight upon you.” I reread the quote in my car, hop­ ing it would give me confidence. So far, it wasn’t working. I still felt unsure. Anxious. Far from still and quiet.

I picked up the envelope from beside me on the car seat. Am I making a mistake? Inside was my letter of res­ignation as library director, giving the required two weeks’ notice. All I had to do was drop off the letter at the county courthouse. Last night it had felt like the right thing to do, but now, sitting in the parking lot, I had doubts. I had no future plans, no job lined up, no idea what I would do next. I just knew I couldn’t keep doing this.