On the day Amy died, the phone rang and my husband Richard took the call. His mum was seriously ill, so when he came to me and said “She’s Gone”, I thought he was talking about his mum. But then he said, “Your baby’s gone.” I was numb.
The hours that followed felt like a blur. Amy’s dad, Mitch, flew back from New York and we stood in the living room and hugged and cried. But the hard, cold reality only really hit when I went to identify the body. Amy looked like she was asleep in her bed. I wanted to say, “Amy, get up, it’s time to go to school.”
If I could describe being Amy’s mum in one word it would be “interesting”. She says it in her lyrics – “I was a flame”. My Amy was a firecracker. As a little girl, it was as though she was mishearing me, because whenever I said “don’t” she seemed to think I meant “do”. She was feisty, always spoke her mind, and always did what she wanted. She sang constantly and we were always telling her to shut up.
I was probably a bit of a pushover but I was a good mother – the mother I didn’t have and would have liked. My mum was self-involved and uninterested in what I was doing. I wanted to be there for my kids. And that’s what gave us such a close bond – Amy could always talk to me.
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