Sat across from the pregnancy test in the sink, I couldn’t bear to look at it.
I’d been left feeling really disappointed so many times before.
My husband Daniel, 31, and I had been trying since early 2017, and now a few months in, I would have expected something to happen.
I couldn’t wait to be a mum and thought the process of getting pregnant would be quicker.
Everyone I knew who had become pregnant had done so by accident as a teen – I just assumed it would be relatively easy.
As I picked up the test, an all too familiar sinking feeling dropped through my stomach.
‘Negative,’ I said, watching Daniel’s face drop.
‘We’ll get there,’ he said.
I nodded, but I couldn’t help but feel disheartened.
Reaching for my phone I knew one place that could help.
Facebook always has support groups, I thought.
So, I joined a fertility support group, and I was soon receiving helpful advice from other couples and parents.
Occasionally posting, I just wanted to ask advice from successful couples.
Then one day, I saw an advert for the group – they wanted another admin.
I can do that, I thought.
After applying, it wasn’t long until I was admin of the group alongside a woman named Taz, who was based in Bristol.
Chatting regularly, Taz and I became firm friends.
Only her job intrigued me...
She worked as a fertility psychic.
What does that mean? I messaged her, intrigued.
I can predict when a couple will conceive using tarot, she replied.
It blew my mind.
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