Sitting on the loo, I felt my nerves build. I wasn’t sure what results I wanted. I can’t see myself as a mum, I thought.
Until I had met Ollie, I wasn’t sure I would find someone I was comfortable enough with to have a family.
But meeting him four years ago had changed everything.
Having had regular periods most of my adult life, I knew I had to do a test when it didn’t arrive after two weeks.
But I had no typical symptoms or maternal instinct telling me I was pregnant – the test was just routine.
Until I picked the test up and spotted the two lines.
Feeling nervous, I went downstairs to let Ole, 32, know the news.
Handing him the test, I waited to see his reaction.
‘Oh,’ he said. ‘I guess we’re going to be parents then.’
‘I guess we are,’ I replied.
And after the shock had worn off, we were over the moon – we were so excited for this next chapter of our lives.
Keeping the precious news to ourselves until the 12-week scan, I was so excited to tell the rest of the family.
‘Congratulations!’ my dad, Darryl, 57, beamed. ‘I can’t wait to be a grandad!’
Sadly, I’d lost my mum, Claire, in 2020, and Ole had lost his dad, Derek, in 2021.
I wished I could have shared the news with them – they would have been such amazing grandparents to our baby.
Because of a previous ectopic pregnancy, we were monitored closely for the first 16 weeks.
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