Rearranging sunglasses on my face, for the hundredth time, it was frustrating.
It was not a wonky fashion statement-I was trying to hide my face.
How long do cold sores last? I thought.
I had a huge one across my nose and cheek.
After many long months of enduring the huge sore across my face, I considered getting it checked.
So in 2012 I made an appointment at a skin clinic.
I wasn't convinced anything was wrong, but I didn't want to look ugly! I had my consultation and was shocked that I was called back a few days later.
I was always a strong woman, and tried to see the fun in life.
'It's only a cold sore, I quipped.
'No, it's not,' the doctor told me.
'You have skin cancer, Helen.
I liked his honesty, but it was a shock to know I had a form of skin cancer called basal cancer.
I could see how upset my husband Peter was.
He wasn't an emotional man but I could see tears in his eyes.
'I don't want to lose you, he told me.
I had a friend who had had this exact cancer, and her face had been left all squashed.
I used to be a beautiful woman, I thought.
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