Sexually Abused Again And Again
Chat|August 17 2017

First it was my own, trusted dad, then my church elder By Angie Rodgers, 36, from Ayrshire

Lianne La Borde
Sexually Abused Again And Again

As Dad rang the doorbell, I stared at the ground.

Please don’t know me, I prayed silently. It was 1991 and

I was 10. My family were Jehovah’s Witnesses.

Each weekend, my dad Ian, then 30, would take me door-to-door, trying to recruit new members, convert them to ‘the truth’.

Mortified, I kept my head down, dreading a kid from school answering the door.

I was already being bullied.

‘Bible basher,’ kids called me.

I wasn’t allowed friends outside the religion, or to participate in school activities.

We didn’t celebrate birthdays or Christmas. It was a lonely, miserable childhood.

Evenings were packed with book study, family worship or meetings at our local Kingdom Hall – Jehovah’s Witnesses’ houses of worship.

Then, one night, when I was 11, life got so much worse.

I woke up, and Dad was on top of me, touching me. His hands were up my nightie, groping my private places.

What’s happening? I panicked.

In shock, I froze, too terrified to speak.

After, Dad left without a word.

My head swam with questions.

Was this normal?

It didn’t feel right.

But Dad was a devout man – and, as strict as he was, I trusted him.

So I didn’t say a word, even when it happened again.

Then, one day, I had gastric flu, was throwing up. Dad looked after me while Mum went to the Kingdom Hall. Scooping me up off the couch, Dad carried me upstairs.

I thought he’d tuck me into bed, but instead he took me to his bedroom and molested me as my fever raged.

I was sobbing, so frightened.

Please come home and save me, Mum, I prayed. But she never did.

‘If you tell anyone, I’ll rip you apart,’ Dad snarled after. 

I was terrified of him. 

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