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This from a man who'd once said he'd die without her, who'd written her piles of letters after she'd rejected him, back in graduate school-though graduate school makes it sound more serious than it was.
They'd gone to a university to become fiction writers. The degree took two years.
During this time, Toni slept with several of her peers but not with the man who eventually became her child's father. He left letters in her mailbox about how much this pained him. But he was too odd, she thought, terribly intense, with a work ethic that made her ashamed of her own and a burrowing gaze that at once flattered and repelled. He was skinny and had a ponytail. He carried a briefcase. He didn't die for lack of her, despite what his letter warned.
It wasn't until a decade had passed, when she was working as a waitress in a small New England city and had just broken up with a bartender named Dusty, when she had given up writing, all early sense of specialness evaporated, that she decided to reach out to him. He was happy to hear from her, her old suitor said, thought about her sometimes, wondered how she was. Was she still writing fiction? Now and then, she lied. He'd always loved her prose style, he told her.
He himself had two novel drafts and was finishing a Ph.D. in a city a few hours away. The next weekend, she took a train.
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SUBJECT AND OBJECT
What happened when Lillian Ross profiled Ernest Hemingway.
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ROYAL FLUSH
The fall of red.
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Roz Chast on George Booth's Cartoons
There's almost nothing I like more than a laughing fit. It is a non-brain response, like an orgasm or a sneeze.
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CHUKA
I have always longed to be known, truly known, by another human being. Sometimes we live for years with yearnings that we cannot name.
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Rachel Aviv on Janet Malcolm's "Trouble in the Archives"
As Janet Malcolm worked on \"Trouble in the Archives,\" a two-part piece about prominent psychoanalysts who disagreed about Freud, she began a correspondence with Kurt Eissler, the head of the Sigmund Freud Archives.
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PERSONAL HISTORY - A VISIT TO MADAM BEDI
I was estranged from my own mother, so a friend tried to lend me his.
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AMERICAN CHRONICLES - WAR OF WORDS
Editors, writers, and the making of a magazine.
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LIVE FROM NEW YORK
A new docuseries commemorates fifty years of \"Saturday Night Live.\"
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TANGLED WEB
An arachnophobe pays homage to the spider.
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TROUBLE IN PARADISE
Mike White's mischievous morality plays.