Let me clarify: five people I loved who died and I didn't mind seeing their bodies. It made me realize what I see is just an object; an inanimate plank even a loving hand can't bring to life ever again; the person I loved is just not there.
For two I sat watching that last gasp and felt guiltily relieved.
And that's what I'm used to as a journalist for half a century now: guilt.
Guilt because I never spoke up for the bloodied body parts, the bodies under foil covers, the little girl with staring eyes and the safety pin her mom pushed through her windpipe.
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Vienna lights up streets for shoppers
MARKETS: SUPPORT FOR STRUGGLING RETAILERS
A front-row seat to the rich tapestry of nature
River cruising offers intimate experience
The song remains the same
It's the message not the medium that's important
Downs intent on hitting hard
If you think Mamelodi Sundowns will take their foot off the pedal should they race to an early lead in the Carling Knockout final against Magesi FC, then you're grossly mistaken.
Clean sweep beckons
STICK: SPRINGBOKS CHASE THE COMPLETE PERFORMANCE AGAINST WALES
Recognising burgeoning talent
AWARDS: FEINBERG-MNGOMEZULU COULD CAP A BREAKTHROUGH YEAR IN MONACO
Deputy Howley backs Gatland to get Wales out of trouble
Under-fire Wales boss Warren Gatland is the \"world's best coach\" and going nowhere, according to assistant Rob Howley (right).
Flyhalf is very 'Sexton-esque'
Sam Prendergast (above) has never been lacking in self-confidence, with his talent evident to many, and today he will get to pull the strings for Ireland at flyhalf in the Test against Fiji.
Scottish success riding on Aussie Test
Huw Jones believes the success of Scotland's November international campaign will be judged on whether they beat a rejuvenated Australia at Murrayfield tomorrow.
French defeat is hard to swallow
ALL BLACKS: SHOWING HEALTHY RESPECT FOR AZZURRI
