When a lip gloss soothes a young girl’s pain of being bullied, what happens next? Laura Capon explains what life is like when you’re addicted to cosmetics.
It’s 11.39pm and, rather than getting the sleep my twitchy eye tells me I so desperately need, I’m scrolling through Kyliecosmetics.com and adding a highlighter to my shopping bag. of course, I don’t need another one. I have more than 100 illuminating products already, and only ever use the same three shades. But then that’s not the point.
You see, my relationship with cosmetics is, how can I put this … complicated. Makeup has been there at some of the most joyous moments of my life (first dates, friends’ weddings, family celebrations), but it has also been there during the darkest times too.
I’m 31 years old now, and my makeup obsession (for it is an obsession) began when I was 15. Right about the time I started being bullied. I would save up my weekly wages from my after-school job mopping the local bakery floors, and buy a new Versace lip gloss every month from the local department store. I wasn’t a chubby child, but not long after I hit puberty my body started to pad out. That meant high school became a cold and hostile place.
Unfathomably, while other girls remained annoyingly tiny, chowing down on sausage rolls at breaktime, I grew. It was the kind of puppy fat that I hoped would disappear one summer, so I could have that high school transformation you see in the movies. But, despite exercising regularly and eating the same as everyone else, I just got bigger.
Boys were the worst, publicly embarrassing me with their ‘Michelin Man’ comments or telling me I’d won the award for ‘most obese student’. Unsurprisingly, I became terrified of them, afraid even to look up when I walked around. The thought of heading into school every Monday morning made me feel physically sick. On Sunday evenings, I would cry in the shower, a feeling that has stayed with me to this day. I wanted nothing more than to disappear.
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