Happiness after heartbreak REBEKAH'S BABY JOY!

In her own words, Short land Street star Rebekah Randell, 30, reveals her delight at being pregnant again after a devastating miscarriage

Writing this, I'm currently 20 weeks pregnant and as much as I'd love to say I'm glowing, I'm throwing up most mornings! But it's the smallest sacrifice for our dreams to be coming true and I'm so excited to be a mum.

It's been a heartbreaking journey for my husband Bevan, 36, and I to get to this happy place. Last year, we were eight weeks along when we found out we'd lost our already much-loved baby.

'I'm sorry, but your baby has no heartbeat, are words that have haunted me. In that moment, I couldn't speak, I couldn't breathe and tears flooded my eyes as I tried to compose myself enough to put my clothes back on post-scan. I remember Bevan asking the sonographer, 'Are you sure? Is there any chance you could be wrong?'

There was no chance she was wrong. We were left shocked and grieving the car ride home was silent apart from my sobs. When we finally parked, we just sat there. I remember turning to Bevan and saying,

'What do we do now?'

With both of us still sitting in the car, I called my mum and broke the news. Then his. Then his brother Clint. We finally went inside and I just sat in the middle of the floor. We'd been here only a few hours prior, excited for our first scan, telling our families we'd send photos of our baby.

Clint cooked us dinner that night, and my niece and nephew Cammy and Ty kept hugging me because, although we didn't tell them what was really going on, they knew that 'Aunty Bex is sad!

I've never held them as tightly as I did that night. It really hit home what a miracle children are and I promised myself I'd never take that for granted again. Clint's wife Jaime came home from work later that evening and showed me the tiny baby clothes she'd already bought our little love. It was surreal. I was sad and angry, and everything felt unfair.