Lucy Davenport, 41, was left with post-traumatic stress disorder after witnessing Tom's horrific final hours - during which hospice staff could do nothing to ease his suffering.
The dad of one, 47, had cancer of the bile duct that had spread to his bowel and caused a blockage.
Anti-sickness drugs did not help and Tom, of Scarborough, North Yorks, was vomiting so violently he could not stay sedated.
Lucy said: "I was with two of his older sisters, Alisa and Janet, and we kept vigil, taking it in turns to hold a bowl underneath his mouth whilst he vomited his own faecal matter.
"Eventually, after five hours, he inhaled it, choked and died. The look of horror on his face will never leave me." Music teacher Tom had been diagnosed a year earlier after the skin around his eyes turned "Homer Simpson yellow" during a walk with Lucy and their son Joss, now nine.
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